||[Jun. 6th, 2008|12:47 am]
i had a beautiful day today. school was alright i guess, but that's not where the fun began. i went to dawson's house and as usual climbed through the bedroom window and i heard dawson talking to his mom. he was asking her about sex and she was trying to be all nonchalant about it, but i could tell that she was uncomfortable. i listened for a while and then made my entrance known. she took one look at me, blushed, and ran away. dawson and i just looked at each other and busted out laughing. |
sometimes i really miss him as a friend. i wish it could be the way it was before all this. when did i start to develop feelings for him? i have no freakin idea. one day he's my best friend chasing me down and tickling me till milk comes out of my nose, and the next day i want to make out with him like mad crazy.
i need my mom. i miss her so much it kills me. she died a few years ago and yet it seems like only yesterday i saw her face and kissed her good morning.
i wish she could tell me the answers. bessie is helpless.